Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Update on My Post-IUI Cyst

Yesterday was day 18 of my cycle.  I have an appointment with Dr. Prashant in the morning to check the condition of my 'post-IUI cyct'.

The finding of the transvaginal ultrasound was the cyst has shrunk by itself from 30mm to 10mm. Confidently, Doctor Prashant said that it will disappear by itself soon. Also, I was told that my period will come by itself, just that the cycle will be abit longer this time, probably 5 weeks. Yeah, no need to take Duphaston for this cycle!

I might not be able to understand the logic behind Dr. Prashant's prediction but somehow, I was relieved, as I have just gone back to my original shape (though not very shapely lah) after taking care of my diet and deligently visited the gym everyday after the 1st unsuccessful IUI. 'Drug free' means I do not need to face the awful bloating and lethargic feeling again, at least for this month.

To a certain extend, I still wish that I have the opportunity to become a mother. But there is really nothing much that I can do to guarantee the realization of my wish. Many say 'take it easy, it will come by itself if it meant to be'; many also say 'you have to keep thinking about it as per the theory of The Law of Attraction'.

So, what do I say? I have nothing to say. But I can tell you how I feel. As a woman, if you are sub fertility challenged, you should not confine yourself too much to the mindset of 'I must have baby, I must!'. You will push yourself to the brink of insanity if baby luck is not with you, and worst still, your neurotic expression will impose tremendous stress to the people around you. Be aware while you are treating subfertility, there are also beautiful worlds around you. Your career, you love ones, your hobbies, your current existing life! Savour them while you patiently wait for a miracle!

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Monday, July 4, 2011

2nd IUI......On Hold

4 July 2011 (Mon)

Today marks the 3rd day of my period.

It was a beautiful Saturday when my period visited. However, it was awfully unbearable. I attended an event in the morning and the pain swarmed in when I went back home in the afternoon. I had a very bad stomach cramp until I could not even keep my body straight. I turned, rolled, curled on the bed, but there is no posture that could mitigate the pain. I remembered one of my friends told me that labour pain is a thousand times more painful than menstrual pain. If it really is, giving birth is truly an act of insanity! There was even a point that I wished that I could just pass out, just to escape from the pain. In fact, I did. With my palms holding my lower abdomen while I was still searching for the best posture, I fell asleep. The pain was all gone after 2 hours of deep sleep.

Well, with the arrival of my period, I went to Dr. Prashant’s clinic to see if it is possible to have my 2nd IUI today. Unfortunately, he found a big cyst ( I did not bother to know how big is it anymore) on my right ovary, the side that produced 2 big follicles last month.  Due to this, I was told to take a break this month.

Having ovary cysts after IUI is pretty common. According to the doctor, ovaries always response by showing cysts after they were forcefully stimulated to produce eggs. All the extra follicles that one gets will increase the chance of getting cyst. When this happens, we let the ovaries rest and hopefully when we leave them alone, the cyst(s) will subside naturally too. Of course, the patient can be prescribed with medication to force the cysts to regress, but my doctor prefer to go with the natural way. I agreed with him. When someone is angry, leave him alone. This is simple theory.

So, am I upset to sit a month out? I thought I would. But, surprisingly, I am doing fine. I  know that my ovaries have been working very hard. They deserve a good rest. My mind too. Keep thinking of all the treatments and forecasting the outcome is killing. This month, I am going to enjoy my work, my personal time and the quality time with my love ones.  

You should not treat your life as incomplete, just because you are reproductive challenged. In fact, imperfection is part of the perfection of this universe. You own your life, you are responsible to make it beautiful and meaningful no matter what obstacle comes along.

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